Sucker

I've just been commissioned for my first piece of paid work this year. I've decided to leave a final decision about applying for a job and moving till after Christmas. The message of the latest career advice book I've just finished could be summed up as "Suck it and see" so I am sucking freelancerdom again for a bit. I pretty much *know* I can't make enough money to live from it but the fear of applying for jobs remains strong.